feeling good about it

well ... things are about to change very soon. like many in this town, i am in the process of moving. and school is finishing at the same time. so coordinating this week is a very intricate thing. i am so so so so happy that i'll be free once again from the bounds of a lease, and bills, it is now time to take care of the earth and follow my true calling, which really in no way necessarily includes school. however, it would be nice to stay in, as in be able to go still... and thats why i'm gonna have to crunch a cram this week, and still maintain the meriod of other things i already have going on, ( the band played good the other day too though, i'm stoked about patricks and joe's playing, they're the shit and i look foreward to playing with them again. I didn't really have a premo perfomance, but i didn't think too much of it and just kept playing anyways, so i don't think the audience thought much of it either. but i'm sure if there were any true bass players in the audience they'd know, and i'd just have to say, .. ehhh .... i can do betta, but i shouldn't be too hard on myself, it was fun regardless, and i'd like the seriously thank anyone who made it out, and to all you who didn't, its cool, i didn't make it to your show a couple different times, maybe yes from both of us in the future. ; ), unless yoiur mike james, cuz then i'd say your should have came and your dogs leg wouldn't have gotten broken, i'm tellin you hometeam, that shit went down cuz of cosmic coincidence, and yer ass should have been gettin killed out there instead of bein sat on, but ............. back to the school thing. i know i don't need it, i prolly won't require it for what i want to do, but it could be useful. but i'm pretty sure i should be doing other things with my time, like instead of learning the specificly set names and terms for systems i already know implicitly, but was unaware of exactly how planarians reprocduced and had one gastrovascular canal. but what the fuck, i / we need to figure out how to sustainbly change and transition the ecologically damaging economic system to a smarter, more efficient, and more environmentally friendly one soon. and i know people are working on it, and its great that people are going to school and studying topics in depth, in order to further ask more important questions and scientifically evaluate, explore, and test them in order to better our understanding of how to take care of things, but there does come a limit for some of the things we need to know in order to most synergistically live happily ever after . and i think that point is coming for me. my calling is to start practicing buisness in an ecologically sound way, and be in contact with people who are very knowledgable on the subjects. but i'm talking for real soon, work, but like really cutting down on waste, slow work sometimes, but i'm talking choppin a tree down with an ax not a chainsaw, or a push mower instead of a gas powered one, shovels, p.h. diggers, the works. sounds dumb right... i think differently on a lot of matters, because there are other gains and progessions that are created out of certain choices, and i'm counting on something else to aid in this battle, fo sho, fo sho... but try to meets the needs of living on not focus so much on making money, just cutting expenditures and stiill getting things done. it is my humble calling, but it is a way to turn things around, i will simply perform my function and make less money in order to get bigger, and from there spread the methods and ideas, and feel the joy of knowing and feeling a greater harmony. ........i 'm so serious too, i just need to learn to better myself without letting it make me more of a burden emotionally on others (without becoming an asshole) and just be love... just simply be love. and find true joy.... shooooooooooooooot, i need to get back to studying though, i can still pass, so i might as well, but is this just further endulging my addiction for education... to sit and be told, and not speak up....... and just give up my time, i'm still doing it now, so i can stay in and possibly do it again,....... but i'm gonna do it anyways, no point in failing, but if i do, i'll feel good about it, and not think twice about it and just know that it doesn't matter and that im' supposed to move on and do what my heart really wants me to do. ... but i can still start it after school ends anyways, but.... not having the time constraint of 10 months is very nice, and could free the mind for more possibilities. so on and son on off to read some more and sleep, and maybe alittle guitar to keep me sane. thank you good night